finally ready to fight.

Grüß!

First, can I just say. Props to the If it’s love, Human Video team.

We’re going to nationals!

Thanks for not giving up, guys! (:

Now, to my blog. Hmm, I am going to write three words. Ugly. Worthless. Nothing.

These words are what I whisper to myself when I look in the mirror. These are the words that Satan feeds into me. These are the words I have been falling into the past two weeks. These are the words I need to somehow overcome.

As I write this blog, I feel so embarrassed because just a few blog posts ago, I was posting about beauty. Posting about how content I have become. Posting how beautiful we girls are. And here I am now, shaking and crying and blogging about how Satan took control, and how I didn’t stop it.

As I sat in worship last night during convention I really got hit with the holy spirit. As I lowered my head and cried out to God I was convicted. How could I let Satan push me to this point? How did I let Satan take this much control? Don’t get me wrong, things like this are bound to happen. I am human, but for some reason. I could have fought, I should have fought. But I just sat back and let Satan take power. I let him feed ugly, worthless, nothing into me. I let him speak the lies over me. Did I become weak? Yes. Did I fight? No.

But now I will.

Ugly. Worthless. Nothing. They must not longer exist. And unfortunately I can’t overcome this in just a day. But I am ready to fight. I will no longer let Satan have control. I am taking control. These words will no longer be whispered. These words will no longer be remembered. I have a purpose, I am beautiful, and yes. I do happen to be worth something.  

(: