That is in Japanese.
I love lookinig at cool languages, and what not. (:
Today, I will be blogging about, well, what my title says.
I found some things out, about someone, and it left me all of these things!
I was waiting, waiting for a text. My friend had just gotten a tattoo, and sent me a picture of it.
(on his arm. his last name. it looks like graffitti. pretty cool!)
Anyways, as I was waiting I saw some pictures. Opened one,
and it was uhm. How can I say this? Very voulgar. I threw the phone across the room.
This poor girl, this picture. It tore my heart apart. Just to know that this girl couldn't say no.
I was hurt for her. But I was even more confused because this person that got the picture.
Let's say his name is, "John". He is extremely close to me, and I never thought in a million yaers he would ask nor do this. I thought I had known him better.
Not only did he want the picture, he wanted sex. Bad. He tried to manipulate these girls.
At first, I was tearing up. Wanting to cry. But then, this anger hit me. I couldn't help, but get so mad!
Why was this? I don't even know! My emotions just flipped. But, I am actually writing this blog for help.
For some advice. This person, he is closer to me then you may think. I can't say names. It would hurt him. He does not come to this church, so no worries. He actually doesn't go to church at all. He is a non believer. An atheist. Which makes this situation harder for me! I am so lost. So confused. Everytime I go to say something, my tongue. my mouth. my words. they won't come out.
I ask God, why? Why can't you just give me the strength. The words. The way. To say this and not hurt this person or the relationship that has been building. I am so scared, so frustrated, so confused. So lost! I feel uncapable, unable to even talk to this person. Yet, I know that I am capable. Because I have done it before. I have had to deal with these situations. I have dealt with them, and things have turned out okay. Why am I so doubtful.
God. Please. Show me what needs to be said. What needs to be done. How it needs to be said, and when. I trust you and I love you. I believe you will do something with this situation and I believe that you will use me. Show me guidance. Patience. Love. Show me that I am capable. I am capable through you.
Avoirrrr peeps. (:
as i read this i could hear your voice (kinda wieird) but anyways im sure God will tell you what to do sooner or ater, like he'll tell me what to do with my person im having trouble talking to about Jesus.
ReplyDeleteIntense stuff Leah - glad to see that you are willing to get down into the "dirt" of real ministry and help to change some lives. One of the biggest things you have to remember to avoid that hatred that will often come is that his sin is not him. You can't hate him - hate the sin and the source of all sin (the enemy), or else you may end up saying some hurtful things.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I don't really know enough about the situation to give detailed advice. If you know the girl in the picture, you should tell her how beautiful she is every time you see her - often when we've sinned, we feel like our beauty has left and all we have left is the sin so we grip to it - encouraging words from you could help.
As for witnessing to your male friend - this is more difficult. You see, he's not a Christian, so to expect anything more than sin from him would be ridiculous - he doesn't believe in freedom, just fun. He may often use excuses in his own mind like, "it's not hurting anyone". But if the conversation does ever come up (which may not happen), show him that it is hurting the women that he is stealing beauty and self-worth from.
As for now, I would do your best to love him like God would.
if you would like to talk more with me about this, I would love to help in any way possible.
Jordan's answer is great. I'd love to help in any way, open to talk or whatever.
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