Well, well, well. Hello dear friends. I hope that you all had a good week last week, and that this week is going good. God has really been showing, and teaching me a lot. At first, it was more than I could even comprehend, but now I just want him to show me more and more. It is an incredible feeling knowing that God is taking time to show me stuff. It makes me feel so incredibly loved.
Anywho. I think God has really been testing the waters with me lately. Testing me to see how committed I am to him, and how badly I want this relationship with him. Does that make sense? Okay, well. I've had some distractions with guys lately, again. I suck, I know. Yet, I did one of the hardest, yet most rewarding things the other day. There is one guy in particular who was very touchy feely with me that I was just friends with. Which isn't okay, but I didn't stop him. He would hold my hand, play footsies, etc. etc. and I didn't really mind. I allowed my feelings and emotions to be played with and I allowed him to become a distraction. Once I realized I was putting this guy before God I pretty much punched myself in the face. I told him look, we are very touchy feely when we are just supposed to be friends. We need to set some boundaries. Done. Bam. Wham. Ham. I DID IT!
Ever since I did that it seriously feels like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulder. I feel so incredibly relieved, and I know now that I can focus that much more on God, which makes me heart so happy! I want that feeling of being loved, and having a boyfriend. Yet, I know that just allowing any guy to come in isn't how I'm going to find him. I'm not doing a dating fast, but I am going to put ALL my focus on God, and get away from the guys. I know that there is a guy out there for me, and once I stop searching God will bring him to me. It's all in God's timing, and God's timing is perfect.
Go Leah!! So proud of you sweetie. Don't you love it when you get those realizations?
ReplyDeleteLeah, I love you so much!
ReplyDeleteI'm so proud of you for talking to him, I know how hard that was for you!
You're such a good example. I'm so glad I get to be a part of your life and watch you and your relationship with God!
You're so strong, and so brave. I'm so proud of you.
I love you, beautiful.
SUCH a good blog!! You're always growing, it's so inspiring to see. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteYou're so right Leah. It's never about our timing, but always about God's. There's so many times I want things on my terms, my time...but in retrospect it is always so clear that God works things out according to His plan and he knows what is truly best for us.
ReplyDeleteAs for the boundaries...way to go! That had to be a really hard thing to do, but God will surely honor that:) Have a lovely week!