Staying true to myself, and to God.

The true follower of Christ will not ask, "If I embrace this truth, what will it cost me?" Rather he will say, "This is truth. God help me to walk in it, let come what may!" A. W. Tozer

Obedience: The state or quality of being obedient.

Patience: An ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay.

My mind has been overflowing with an incredible amount of things for a couple weeks now. I realized just this week that people really do have to go through hard times sometimes to be shown and taught things they need to be shown and taught. I recently went through a very confusing, and difficult situation with someone I knew. I took what God was giving me and completely mis understood things because I also took a hold onto what Satan was giving me. Taking ahold of what both sides have for you is not good. At the time, I didn't realize this is what I was doing. I completely overlooked everything that I felt. I would doubt and question a lot of things that was going on in this situation. A very, very good friend of mine was gifted with an incredible amount of knowledge on relationships. Her wisdom is truly amazing, and so I sat her down and talked about things.

She reassured me that if this is something God really wanted and had planned for me, there would be NO questioning. If this is what God has planned for me he would constantly be reassuring me of it. I had no reassurance, and questioned a lot of things in this situation. I never realized that if things were right I wouldn't be questioning them. It sucked a lot to have to end what was going on because of what I thought was going to happen, but through this I have gained a lot of clarity.

I am staying obedient to God and really just focusing on loving him. I know that God rewards patience, and although I have strayed off every now and then, I have for the most part stayed patient. Knowing that feels great, because I know that when my man finally comes it will be a feeling and experience greater then words will be able to express. I guess what I wanted to get out of this whole confusing blog post is that yes. We go through hard times, but you have to realize how much you have learned and trust God to fix things. I am, was, and will be hurt but I know that God will heal that and give me someone so much greater that he knows I have been waiting for. I so very much look forward to the day that God brings me the man of my dreams. Until he does, though, I will stay obedient and faithful to Him.