Come on, Leah. Just say it.

Hello people.

Man, has it been awhile since I last blogged! My bad! Well, I hope everyone is well. I hope life is swell. (That rhymed. I’m cool.) Well, I know what I’m going to blog about today. So, let’s get to it!

Some of you may know that I have a heart for missions. I went on my first mission trip to the Dominican Republic this past summer in July. Whew, was that amazing or what. I loved it. I love the Dominican. Anyways, ever since that first trip my heart has really been thrown to third world countries. I realized a lot of the hurt that my heart feels when I think about other countries is how much they don’t have. As to how much we have. It hurts me. Just sitting here typing this, I wonder. What are all those people doing in Africa, China, Asia, and Dominican? The list goes on, and on. Just to sit here and know that people are dying. People are going to hell every second because they never got the chance to hear about God. They never had that chance; it really just kills me inside. It makes my heart ache.

The point of this blog is to really tell how; quiet I am about my calling. Don’t get me wrong, I am so extremely happy to be living the life I live. I love God, and I am glad that I am walking the path that I’m walking. Yet, when I get asked, “What do you want to do when you’re older?” I stop for a second, and I think. Do I really want to tell them? I can just say I will travel the world. That would be a lie, though. Wouldn’t it? Well, yes. Yes and no. I will be traveling the world, but that is not what I am going to be doing. I will be preaching the gospel, and telling the world about Jesus Christ. Why am I so afraid to say that though? Hmm, I do not think it is because of the judgment that will be placed on me. I think it has more to do with the whole explanation of what, “preaching the gospel” means, or who is Jesus Christ. I get afraid, afraid I will speak the wrong words.

Yet, this fear, this fear is keeping my mouth shut. It is hiding the words that need to be said that could possibly be saving lives. So, what now? Well, that’s easy to answer.

God, please. Open my mouth and heart. God, give me the words to speak. Take the fear, and let me be okay.  Let me be content in the words I speak into peoples’ lives. I love you.

Amen.

Peace brooo. (: